“There is time yet for you to comprehend your sense of being. Even though at times you doubt your very nature, there are ways of reminding yourself that your life is not arbitrary nor accidental. You only need to return to what you love. Find your passion and be at one with it.
There are few ways to express the inner sense of peace of which I speak, and at times the language may be allegorical. But it is only a form of expression to which you apply your own meaning. It will not rob you of your soul if you organise and express your words in a way that you deem unfamiliar or arbitrary, or at worst full of fantasy,pomp, or even danger. Your soul, your sense of being will remain intact. No thing and no one can alter your sense of integrity, that alone is your choice.
Do not mask your ability to see further than you have allowed yourself thus far in your short but intense life, even though you may feel aged, past being able to change, no longer in need of following big aspirations. There is no bigger aspiration than your will to live, and to live well. Do not chide yourself for not having been able to untangle yourself from the threads of your own self-created reality. The tangle that you believe yourself to be in, the tangle that is the web of your physical existence, is no tangle at all. You are free to move as you will, within your mind, and within your temporal space just as you did when you were a child.
Think to a time when you felt truly alive, full of energy and exuberance, feel the adrenaline coursing through your body and remember how present you were, completely focussed in that moment, unaware of all else that was occurring about you. You were larger than life, and your internal and external states operating as one at that moment were all that concerned you. In remembering and creating such moments you create a greater network of experience to which you can access throughout your life; you physiologically change the way you manifest the reality that you call your own. Such moments/memories/experiences create echoes or vibrations through your physical existence, and you purposely recreate versions of those echoes enmeshing them together to create the greater sense of memory that you have of your linear existence, or the particular time-line that you think of as your own.
Within the seed of such intense experiences/memories lies your personal potential to live your life with the quality to which you aspire. Your passion, motivation and drive grow from those seeds and compel you to seek out and experience your life in the most fulfilling ways possible. In order to find fulfilment and to untangle yourself from your illusory web, you would do well to follow your compulsions, your impulses, allowing them to unfold and thus lead you to the source of your inexhaustible inner energy which courses through you, and out into your version of reality. Even the most seemingly insignificant of impulses can lead you on a path of discovery and remembering that can be most energising and revitalising, and thus trigger your inexhaustible creativity and passion.”